Rebel Rebell 
Take off the mask.
Let the sheep wonder why you walk alone.
It’s not scary when you don’t care who stares.
They watch, wanting to understand.
How you find directions from the inside.
Feeling inspiration from all kinds of vibes.
Let the energy from within shine bright.
Be that light.
Show them how to harness the energy sleeping inside.
I’m not the door.
I’m the hand.
The words came to me in a dream.
The realization made perfect sense.
It’s the path I want to travel.
It’s the road that leads to you.
You’re who I’ve been wanting to meet.
Interested?
You should be,
the words woke me.
Looking forward to the stretched out hand that leads to the opposite side of the insanity.
How long will madness take its turn visiting my dreams, before the conquering master rescues what left of the true me? 
Forgive me for having to leave you behind.
You weren’t ready to grow and move past all the obstacles in that part of your life.
I tried to wait but time doesn’t stand still for absolutely no one.
Life happens and I tried a few different paths.
Pulling my own weight was challenging enough
You can play the blame game.
Curse me for not holding your hand every step of the way.
It took me a long time to realize,
I’m not responsible for what you decide. 
I can lend a hand.
Even listen to you for a while.
I find it’s more out of pity these day.
Memories of us are a blur.
You’re still unchanged.
What a shame,
you blame others
for staying in the same place.
It’s not a game.
Losing control.
A gluttonous mind. 
Reckless with life.
Flying hight, away from the burn.
Undesirable thoughts surface, with no where to run. 
Seeing opportunity and taking the lead.
Shrinking the soul.
Evil spirts take control.
Lost in a body you know longer drive.
Afraid for your own life.
It’s taken over,
the souls home.
You’ll have to face off with all of your demons to reclaim your thrown.
This path.
It’s the wrong way.
We’ll get lost, led astray.
Stepping out into the unknown.
I don’t want to go.
It feels wrong.
Few people take this road.
It’s dark and lonely.
I won’t volunteer to travel right into temptations hand.
It pains me to know you’ll get lost and feel pain.
You’ll have to fight to find your way.
I’ll wait and call out your name.
As long as it takes.
I know this journey is yours to make.
Only you can find the right way.
I have faith.
You’ll return back to me some day.
That old love song.
Brings back to many memories.
Playing it over and over again,
just to relive all those amazing feelings.
Flashbacks of us.
Dancing, laughing,
holding hands.
Whispering, we’d never leave each other’s arms.
That was so long ago.
Singing along to this love song right now,
Rewinds the time.
Enjoying simple moments
From so long ago
Hey girl hey.
I had a dream.
You and I came eye to eye.
Always all up in my head.
Whispering all kinds of lies.
I laughed when I finally set my eyes on you.
Hot damn, seriously that was you?
Playing games with my head.
A jester fucking with my mind.
Thank you GOD for a hardcore life.
Gave me the strength to go toe to toe with my ego.
I can put it in writing, scream it out into the air, the world is my witness.
I turn my back on you.
Bye Bitch Bye.
You whisper so many lies.
Can I spend time with you?
You’re far from my reach but I still want to impress you. 
In the name of what feels like “love”, I won’t stop until I’ve caught up with you.
It’s painfully beautiful, this struggle with love. 
All it takes is a smile to keep all these flames on a low steady blaze.
You didn’t even have to cast a spell on me.
I follow you willingly.
I’m not sure if this is a good or bad thing.
Wanting you so badly.
My only remedy is pretending this situation is temporary.
Until then I’ll go on feverishly eyeing you.
How do I rid myself of remembering all the different ways you use to love me?
I pray to forget how much you’ve hurt me.
I prefer to remember me before you.
That’s not true.
The thought of not knowing you is worse then trying to unlove you.
In this lifetime I’m not meant to have you, as long as I would have liked to.
The “Me Before You”, is long gone.
Today I walk with healing cracks all over my heart.
Besides that,
this new me feels strong.
Ready to start singing “a platinum love song”.
I cannot have you in the flesh
But I can have you in my head.
Imagining bliss, what a merciful gift. 
Is it a sin?
Taking you into my dream.
Creating every scene so perfectly.
Where everything is what I’d hoped it would be.
It easies the pain of not knowing your touch when I awake.
Dare I look you in the eye.
Knowing what I’ve dreamt inside my mind.
Until tonight.
When I decide,
what I’ll be having under the moonlit sky. 

